suicide, suicide stamped in my brain
suicide, suicide can't feel no pain
suicide, suicide close my eyes tight
suicide, suicide tell them goodnight
suicide, suicide grab my blade
suicide, suicide let my life fade
suicide, suicide put down my note
suicide, suicide let my life float...
Sunday, March 25, 2012
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
Let Me Say Goodbye
Dear God it’s me again
hear me pray as I lie on my bed
tell me is this the end
is it worth the pain I’ve bled
Are you there do you hear me
I have so much to tell you
I can’t stand what I’ve come to be
and I don’t know if I’ll make it through
Why did you make me this way
why am I so depressed
God, I don’t want to stay
let me leave this mess
See my pain and the tears I’ve cried
don’t you hear me at all
God you know how much I’ve tried
so please just let me fall
You have seen the cut I made on my arm
why didn’t you stop me
if you are not there I’ll continue my self-harm
please just set me free
I’m begging you, I can’t take anymore
why won’t you just let me die
when death is all I long for
so please God, just let me say goodbye
hear me pray as I lie on my bed
tell me is this the end
is it worth the pain I’ve bled
Are you there do you hear me
I have so much to tell you
I can’t stand what I’ve come to be
and I don’t know if I’ll make it through
Why did you make me this way
why am I so depressed
God, I don’t want to stay
let me leave this mess
See my pain and the tears I’ve cried
don’t you hear me at all
God you know how much I’ve tried
so please just let me fall
You have seen the cut I made on my arm
why didn’t you stop me
if you are not there I’ll continue my self-harm
please just set me free
I’m begging you, I can’t take anymore
why won’t you just let me die
when death is all I long for
so please God, just let me say goodbye
Restless Night
Morning so far away...
in bed is where she lay...
in the door way, where he loomed...
he emits a shadow across the room...
he enters with such silence...
that even bells would be impotent...
on his knee, by her bed..
his hand on her thy and on her head...
intentions so perverse...
doesn't know what to do first...
his eyes, they roam...
made him glad they were alone...
one who can't control the need...
afraid of where it might lead...
she lie in the bed there awake...
knowing not what to do, but fake...
skin tremors beneath his touch...
loves the way she feels so much...
taking over, the demons within...
does all but stop, committing the sin...
in her mind, screams for help...
while every curve of her, he felt...
violating her every way...
leaves to come back another day...
in her bed, she never sleeps...
for she knows late at night he creeps...
into her room, into her bed...
the demons with her, willingly he fed...
this man, so wicked and sick...
every inch of her he licked...
making her fear to wake...
to the morning to yet again fake...
that it never happened, it was all a dream...
but in her mind, she silently screams...
"save me mom, cant you see?"
"this man you love, is killing me..."
in bed is where she lay...
in the door way, where he loomed...
he emits a shadow across the room...
he enters with such silence...
that even bells would be impotent...
on his knee, by her bed..
his hand on her thy and on her head...
intentions so perverse...
doesn't know what to do first...
his eyes, they roam...
made him glad they were alone...
one who can't control the need...
afraid of where it might lead...
she lie in the bed there awake...
knowing not what to do, but fake...
skin tremors beneath his touch...
loves the way she feels so much...
taking over, the demons within...
does all but stop, committing the sin...
in her mind, screams for help...
while every curve of her, he felt...
violating her every way...
leaves to come back another day...
in her bed, she never sleeps...
for she knows late at night he creeps...
into her room, into her bed...
the demons with her, willingly he fed...
this man, so wicked and sick...
every inch of her he licked...
making her fear to wake...
to the morning to yet again fake...
that it never happened, it was all a dream...
but in her mind, she silently screams...
"save me mom, cant you see?"
"this man you love, is killing me..."
Monday, January 2, 2012
Disregard My Death
What a pretty vein you are,
So beautifully long and blue,
What would they say,
If I were to cut you?
They would probably say,
Does she know what this could bring?
Does anyone know,
Why she did that awful thing?
And I’d just sit there and smile,
Hoping no one would ask if I was ok,
Praying that I can make it,
Slowly through another day,
My tears silently flow,
From my burning eyes,
They fall to my heart,
Where my soul truly lies,
This is my cry,
My silent plead for help,
I need a strong hand,
To help pull me out,
My vein is bleeding,
Dripping down my shirt,
And the thing is,
It doesn’t even hurt,
I know that I am dying,
This is my last breath,
I don’t want to inconvenience anyone,
So just disregard my death.
So beautifully long and blue,
What would they say,
If I were to cut you?
They would probably say,
Does she know what this could bring?
Does anyone know,
Why she did that awful thing?
And I’d just sit there and smile,
Hoping no one would ask if I was ok,
Praying that I can make it,
Slowly through another day,
My tears silently flow,
From my burning eyes,
They fall to my heart,
Where my soul truly lies,
This is my cry,
My silent plead for help,
I need a strong hand,
To help pull me out,
My vein is bleeding,
Dripping down my shirt,
And the thing is,
It doesn’t even hurt,
I know that I am dying,
This is my last breath,
I don’t want to inconvenience anyone,
So just disregard my death.
Her Darkness Within
Bloodshot eyes in tears
Painkillers in her hand
Why she wishes to die
They will never understand
A razor blades touch
Feels like kissing her skin
And as her sweet blood drops
Her pain will ease within
Darkness surrounding her
Eating up her broken soul
Depression took her heart
And took over the control
Trapped and forever caged
In her own self hate
No one tried to safe her
And now it is too late
Suicidal dreams in mind
Locked up in this hell
Secrets remains silent
She swore to never tell
Emptiness in her eyes
Shows so much sorrow
Filled up with pain and hate
Painkillers in her hand
Why she wishes to die
They will never understand
A razor blades touch
Feels like kissing her skin
And as her sweet blood drops
Her pain will ease within
Darkness surrounding her
Eating up her broken soul
Depression took her heart
And took over the control
Trapped and forever caged
In her own self hate
No one tried to safe her
And now it is too late
Suicidal dreams in mind
Locked up in this hell
Secrets remains silent
She swore to never tell
Emptiness in her eyes
Shows so much sorrow
Filled up with pain and hate
Eternal Sleep
On her knees she prays
With tears in her eyes
"Let this be my last day
Where I have to tell lies"
Her wrists are bleeding
Red tears drops to the floor
"Why did I give in again?
I can't do this anymore"
Her eyes are already dead
As well as her soul inside
"Please just kill me now
So my wounds I wont hide"
Temptations from the blade
Is what she can not resist
"Please just take me away
So I won't again cut my wrists"
After her pleading prayer
She fell into eternal sleep
The next day she was dead
From her cuts so deep
With tears in her eyes
"Let this be my last day
Where I have to tell lies"
Her wrists are bleeding
Red tears drops to the floor
"Why did I give in again?
I can't do this anymore"
Her eyes are already dead
As well as her soul inside
"Please just kill me now
So my wounds I wont hide"
Temptations from the blade
Is what she can not resist
"Please just take me away
So I won't again cut my wrists"
After her pleading prayer
She fell into eternal sleep
The next day she was dead
From her cuts so deep
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