Out of Control

All of the memories that are within my mind,
Hurt me too much to just leave them behind.
It doesn't matter how hard I try to forget,
Cause you always find a way to make me upset.

You carve your harsh words into my delicate heart,
While playing the victim as I'm falling apart.
You don't care about the pain you put me through,
Or the fact that I wanted to die because of you.

For every single tear that I have ever shed,
And for all those words that were left unsaid.
It's unbelievable how I've become so empty,
I never imagined that this would happen to me.

Pointless steps forward lead to more mistakes,
Another cold night with pounding headaches.
Salty tears start to fill up my dark brown eyes,
And I know I can't keep hiding behind my disguise.

Scars from my past remind me that I'm weak,
Cause the help that I need I'm afraid to seek.
I can't help but think that I am out of control,
That there's a missing puzzle piece from my soul.

How do I stay strong when I know you'll walk away,
Not caring about all the things that I have to say.
I'm Spinning out of control; All because of you,
You left me here to fade away; Now I can't get through.