Fake

Oh, people make their promises,
To listen to my plea's
But no one will ever realize,
What's aching inside of me

You all say I look different,
That I am getting far to thin ..
But it's not because I'm tired
And not because of "him"

My body feels so weak,
From fingers down my throat
Some days i wish i could stop,
I thought i would be able to cope

..but

I'll put on my loving smile,
When you ask me how i am
And I'll tell you i am great!
And lie as much as i can

This is my hidden agenda,
My everlasting pain
No matter how much i try
My life will never be the same

Prince Charming's Confessions

Perspiring greatly, growing with fever
Breathing so gently, yet chills will not leave her
Humming so softly, yet heart's beating fast
Crying and praying for time to go past

Desperate and hopeless, so lost in despair
Praying and wishing her prince would be there
Utterly misleading was each given lie
Where did she wake up, who was he and why?

Chained to a long bed, atop a dirty sheet
Another lost victim of crime and deceit
Tossing and turning, though she sees no escape
Where was prince charming, why is he so late

A blinding fluorescent fills up the shack
Now everything's visible, all that was black
Shaking and screaming as he comes to view
Relieved, she is crying: "I thought it was you!"

Grinning and moving, he hushes her lips
Prince charming comes up to give her a kiss
But now she's still shaking, wishing to go
His finger touch her breasts, tender, so slow

Squirming uneasily, a few nervous laughs
Pain fills up her throat and crawls down her back
Knowing the truth now, her lips wouldn't speak
He gripped her arms tightly, suddenly she's weak

His knife was gleaming, he gaped at her pose
Cutting through roughly; her body exposed
Feeling so naked, as her clothes hit the ground
The princess can't move. She can't make a sound

Choking on vomit, she cries in regret
The sheets are so sticky, beneath they are wet
On top of her body, her pride and her life
Prince charming looks happy, so filled with delight

She looks in his eyes with one dying plea
"Of all of the people, why was it me?"
Ignoring her wailing, he rips up her soul
The prince was so powerful. He was in control

Suffering last moments, struggling to live
She gave up her hoping, with nothing to give
She stared into his eyes, praying to understand
As the knife plunged her heart; the one in his hand

Vast amounts of pain began to spasm through
Whispering the same words, she died hearing the truth:
"I told you before sweetie, but you weren't convinced...
Because you were my princess...And I, your prince"

Bleeding Mascara

A Tear of pain fills up her most beautiful eyes,
Shimmering in the dark behind her own disguise.
Thoughts are racing as if there is no tomorrow,
Last minute plans to destroy all of her sorrow.
Bleeding mascara is all that she's  prone to,
After all of the things you put her through.

Her lips are shaking from the words that she can't say,
With smeared lipstick on her face that won't wash away.
Screeching voices that are deafening her weak ears,
Dragging her right along to her own pool of fears.

Empty bottles lay across her tiled bathroom floor,
As she stumbles down the hallway to find some more.
Trying to numb the pain of her exploded heart,
The very same heart that you tore apart.


Tasting death as if it's an antidote drug that heals,
Anything to help her escape the pain that she feels.
Singing a sweet lullaby to send her off to sleep,
Now that the pain you have caused has sunken too deep.
Bleeding mascara is all that she's prone to,
After all of the things you  put her through.

Smudging Ink

Smudging ink and flooding words,
Painstakingly written across a page,
Hidden text reveals forgotten hope,
Silently trapped by her eternal rage..

Devotedly writing until soft hands ache,
Pouring out feeling in perfect rhyme,
Tears plunge onto a lake of emotion,
Gradually drowning her soul over time..

Spilling her tortured secrets onto pale paper,
Black stains release what she feels inside,
Plummeting into a sea of her scarred past,
Hoping her feelings will somehow subside.. 

Shattered Mistake

Shattered heart and shattered cries
Leave me here in full disguise
Deepened agony and deepened sorrow
With no real hopes in sight tomorrow
Bloody hands and bloody blade
All your pain you want to fade
Silent cries and silent screams
Corrupting all your happy dreams
Guilty thoughts and guilty noose
You must put all bad things to use
Painful words and painful tears
All have been seen through this broken mirror
Crimson scars and crimson hate
All wrapped together in her shattered mistake.

The Broken Mess You See

Her mind throws her to the closest edge of pain

She holds on although there's nothing left to gain

So tired of all the lies that make her want to fall

Sometimes she wonders if there's any hope at all

She pulls herself up and she tries to run away

But something, holds her back and makes her stay

So there she sits alone trying so hard to feel

The pain is too unfair, there no way that it's real

The scars they tell a story, she will never show

But they continue living...no one needs to know

How can you feel so alone when everyone is near

Shes the one who's missing, her heart not fully here

Heart tangled in the horror of a shattered soul

Body goes numb and silent, hands shaking cold

Judged her by only, the broken mess they see

They do not realize that, they're still looking at me

With Closed Eyes She Sleeps

A lost and lonely girl here sleeps

Upon the dusty floor she lays

Curled up within herself she weeps

And grieves the death of better days.


Her hair is tangled from neglect

With dirty face and dirty hands

Tattered clothes in which she's dressed

Cover bruises, cuts, and bloody bands.



The wind comes through the open door

It blows her hair across her face

It pushes at her on the floor

And makes her shiver in cold's embrace.



The screams of pain inside her rage

A sound her heart has come to know

She should be dreaming at this age

But innocence was stolen long ago.



Now distant are her dreams escape

For night has drifted in so fast

She wills herself to find a place

To hide from hands of anger's grasp.



She hears him coming up the stairs

She seals herself inside her tomb

He'll try to hurt her, but she swears

He'll not find her in this room.



She hears his steps they grow in sound

He's almost here outside her door

She takes the razor and cuts a round

And watches blood drops on the floor.



The door is open to her fate

This man no longer has the power

Her heart and soul safe from his rage

Just a shell of her left in this tower.



No longer does she feel the pain

Or hear the screams inside her mind

All is quiet but the red blood rain

That whisks away this little child.



Now she's feeling comfort's warmth

She's safe and free from his reach

As he kicks the lifeless form

With closed eyes, she finally sleeps.

Daddy Whispers Three

Alone in bed she looks around

afraid of whats to come

the shadows dance along her walls

she hears her daddy hum

tears fill her eyes she starts to cry

up out of bed she runs

and locks the door the knob then turns

and daddy whispers one

don't make me wake your mother up

to tell her you've been bad

come give daddy a kiss goodnight

your making me very mad

she turns the key and steps away

and daddy walks inside

slowly shutting down again

she crawls inside to hide

alone inside her little world

she cannot feel the pain

innocence lost long ago

left in a bloody stain

images fly through her mind

first her then Kristy too

baby carries next in line

before the night is through

anger builds around her heart

please stop she tries to yell

but daddy's hand is on her neck

he knows shell never tell

she struggles underneath his weight

as he removes her shoe

she tries to swing but misses

and daddy whispers two

his grip on her is tightened

and his fist comes crashing down

she tries to fight unconsciousness

as daddy rips her gown

he rolls her on her belly

pulls her close so he wont miss

then he enters hard and quickly

as he gives her daddy's kiss

the minutes seem like hours

as she opens up her eyes

and she hears the desperation

in her baby sisters cries

daddy thrusts in one more time

then rolls onto his back

and she just lies there motionless

and awaits his next attack

she looks into her sisters eyes

and reaches out a hand

and little Carrie reaches back

and slowly starts to stand

but daddy isn't finished yet

and carries pushed aside

he holds her down and spreads her legs

and takes another ride

she falls asleep all bruised and naked

bloody and surrounded

by the sisters she had reached for

while her innocence was pounded

14 years of rape and lies

she falls into depression

and suicide is whats to come

of a child's molestation

3 days later a little body

washes up on shore

a suicide her wrists are cut

but the sheriff sees much more

the headlines scream the story

of a young girls devastation

and the silent screams that go unheard

all throughout the nation

but Kelly's story isn't through

her secrets now unfold

for she tells them with the bruises

on her body now so cold

the lights flash through the window

and theres people all around

asking all these questions

but we don't make a sound

Kristy hasn't spoken since they

told her Kelly died

and i am little Carrie

in a corner i now hide

handcuffs bind his hands and wrists

the evidence they found

her body told of the abuse

when daddy was around

how many mommy asks of him

how many and god why

and daddy looks away from her and mama starts to cry

how many did you do this to

and then he looks at me

my green eye bruised the night before
and daddy whispers three